I Leap Naked Into the Void
I remember just after high school drawing a picture of someone naked leaping off a cliff and you could not tell where they would land. Well once again I am leaping off that cliff and this time into what I am calling the “3rd Chapter of My Life.” Chapter 1 was all about discovery of self from birth through early college. Chapter 2 has been about family and others and it encompasses meeting Dave, having a child and all my working years. I have made the decision to retire early and in about 3 months that will become a reality. I will be going from having plenty of money and almost no time, to quite the opposite…lots of time, but needing to be quite frugal with my funds.
Early retirement was not something I planned for really. It was something I looked forward to “having as an option” when I turn 55 but more recently it is more like a calling that I can’t ignore. I think my trip to India in February was the start of the journey. It feels like that trip opened up my heart nice and wide, like it had not felt in some time. With that huge open heart some of the changes at work have been harder for me to absorb without feeling more and more out of integrity. We are doing good work, don’t get me wrong, but I am feeling more and more like the disciplinarian and less like that creative, nurturing person that is a coach drawing out peoples talents.
And so September 20th, 2012 will be my last day with Kaiser Permananete after 18 years. I will head out to the NW Veg Fest and one week later help my daughter move from girlfriend to wife and then I will begin to explore that “void” to see what is contained in there. I think this 3rd chapter is about finding “God” and coming full circle from self to others to that higher purpose. Wish me luck!